Is the time to countdown....

Is about 6 days to go
The time is getting nearer and nearer
I am getting more nervous
I am not nervous of study but nervous that i ruin everything again
Hope everything will goes on smoothly
Pray to the God

I should go out from my cage and fly to a new world
Know more friends and update myself
As my cousin say i am so childish
I admit that i do
This time should and must be a success for me
If not how could i face my family and others???
What can I do now to overcome my stress and nervous??
Is it by watching The Mysteries of Love?? haha
Starring: Raymond Lam
My favourite idol
Huh... it is so so nice
Kingsley King, a professor which is a outstanding physicist
Sometimes i think is there such a excellent people in this world??
Know everything about life...
Such a perfect guy
Rich, handsome, Brilliant, polite
I wish he could be my boyfriend...
Lolz...( dreaming)

Last Saturday, i just back from Hatyai, Thailand...
what i had get from this trip??
huhu
Getting darker
Is it Thailand got more than one sun???
Haiz... Is damn damn hot huh...
Hotter than we imagine

Anyway, Tey Shu Teck..
Gambateh and good luck ya.....

When there is me.....

When there is me,

Nothing will goes on the right track

When there is me,

Nothing will be successful

When there is me,

I will ruin everything and ended up with nothing

When there is me,

Something will accidentally crash up

So, please don't include me

I am a people that will brings troubles to all of you

I hate myself

I really hate myself

What can I do???

Huh...

I'm moody now...

Sad too...

First time can be excuses

But now is the second time

Every reason was so lame...

I don't want to be at here anymore

Please bring me out from here

I am totally like a bird in its cage

Nothing I can do

Nobody will knows what am I thinking

Where is my listener???

I really need you now

But no ones will appears right in front of me

Am I from other planet??

Why am i so different from others???

That was too little topics between you and me

You wont be the one I met last time

You had totally changed

You are being so strange to me

I am still myself but how about you???

Lack of Confidence!!!!

What a day

So tired

This few days slept late and woke up early

Sigh

yesterday i went to meet my friends

"Long time no see friends"

Haha

We plan to go KL this coming Saturday

Hopefully we can go without any problem

I am totally lack of confidence

Why huh??

Not only me didn't believe in myself,

other people not going to believe me anymore

There are so many question they ask

Every time the same

and

Every time the same question

I am so tired of answering this kinda of question

Cause i feel shy too

Sometimes i don't know how to answer

and

Sometime i lie to them

This is not I want

But i got any other choice??

If got i won't choose the path to be at here

Some people say once you want people to believe you

you must believe in yourself that you can do it

So, can I do it???

This time must be a success for me

I DON'T WANT TO BE A LOOSER

I WANT TO BE A WINNER

Spirit and Courage

Well, first of all
Congratulation to China team on making a success on getting Thomas Cup
It was such a nice game i had ever watch
The word Excellent should used to describe them
Lin Dan... A good player but
he is too proud of himself
Too arrogant
Ermm... but it should be admit that he is really a good player
Good in everything (handsome too haha)
Huh... how come i will talk all of this de???
Nowadays i had been addicted to badminton match huh..
China had their team spirit and courage
how about our Malaysia team??
our Datuk Lee Chong Wei also not that bad
Good luck to him
Hope that he will win Lin Dan
Hehe..

Haiz.. The day is coming nearer
It is so scary
I need some courage and spirit
need it to help me overcome my fear
Fear is not an excuse for me
I should find ways to overcome it
Not to blame on it
So can I do it this time???

Beside that, today is an important day to all teacher
16th of May
Teacher's Day
To all my beloved teachers from primary till secondary
Thanks for all your kindness and patient in guiding me
Thanks for giving a success to me
Thanks on everything you do on me
we should admit that without teachers we wont be at here
So, Happy Teacher's Day.....

Nightmare

Is nightmare instead of sweet dream
Errmm... This few day
My mind keep running of something when i was sleeping
Something BAD
Huhu...
wad is that??
When i woke up, everything seem to be so blur

What am I so scared about??
what am I fear about??
Maybe...
I scared i will dissapoint everybody for one more time...
Will I???

I shouldn't think of that anymore...
I shouldn't dissapoint anybody include myself...
I should believe myself...
I should go ahead to enjoy my life there...

What I can do is pray for GOD
So that i wouldn't change my mind out of sudden
Pray for GOD that i will success for this time
Pray for GOD that i can do it

TEY SHU TECK
This is your last time and the only chance
So appreciate it
Don't waste time here
I should think of my future
Yep, my future
I can do it
So can you???


NITEZ


Sweet dreamzzzzzz.....
instead
of Nightmareeeee.....

A history

11th of May 2010
It is raining cats and dogs now
Today had became a history
Why??
A heavy rain had flooded ground floor of my house
And
The garage is full of mud water
Is MUD
Red in colour
Huh..

Today, i had went to MMU, Cyberjaya
For what i went there??
To settle all my stuff
Leave of Absence i applied since two and a half month ago didn't get replied...
What a stupid xxx
My mum always asking am I making a wise decision to go there study??
Every single staff is a malay
So can you all think how was the working procedure
It is totally xxx
Is it I had make a correct decision??
I think so...
May God bless me this time

This coming June
I should go and continue my study
There is no 'NO" for me anymore
There is no excuses
There is no homesick
There is nothing except study

I had been late
Totally late
I should not waste my time
My mum say that I am a clever people
Is it I am clever???

Mummy... I hope so I wont make you dissapointed again...
I wanted to be your clever daughter I wanted to make you proud of me too
So, do trust me one more time

Tey Shu Teck, you can do it
Trust yourself
Let's work for it
May GOD bless me this time
FEAR...
Please get rid from me...
Gambateh for me and you....
Nitez
Sweet Dreamzzzzzz

Thanks Mummy

Today is a special day to every single mother
What is it??
Mother's Day
To my beloved mummy:
Happy Mother's Day
I love you so much

Thanks for your caring and understanding
Thanks for guiding throughout this nineteen years
Thank for your kindness towards me even i didn't obey your words
Thanks for giving me the best
Thanks for giving me a warm family

Mummy you are the best
I love you so much
Hope you will always healthy
and
Do remember I will always beside you

9th of May(the second week of May)
Today is Mother's day
But we are not celebrating it for this year
Haiz... what a day???
What did i bought for my mummy??
a stalk of flower
the very first time in my life i give my mum a stalk of flowers
This was a symbol of appreciation
Hope you will like it...

Last Thursday was my birthday (6th of May)
Happy Belated Birthday to myself
I am not celebrating it neither
even i didn't bought a cake for myself..
my dad just treat me with a meal with his friend
and with surprising one of my daddy's friend bought me a small cake
thanks to her either
If not the beginning of my sweet nineteen will ruin
actually i would like to celebrate my birthday with my friends at Genting
But some of them not free
So it had to be cancel
Anyway i hope i can go with them next time

At last, thanks to all my friends for the wishes
Appreciate it so much
My wishes for this year:
~Hope i can overcome my fear and be brave to continue my study~ ~Hope my family member will be healthy~ ~Hope everything will be fine throughout this year~
Good luck to me and you
May God bless me

Unforgetable moments...

I am back
Back to reality... One week had past...
I wish i am still at there...
But i am now at here...
No more at there... KOREA
Wad a nice place i am visiting???
Wad a nice scenery i had saw???
Everything is so nice at there except for the price of things... Haha..
But it is made in Korea... Hehe...this phrase had worth more than enough...
Food was totally different from the country i visited last time... (having kimchi in every meal)
seafood steamboat, ginseng chicken, BBQ and many more...

What was so unforgetable??
ermm... I saw snow... Huhu... izzit so unbelievable??
it is late of april... should be spring... but there is still snow...
thanks god for letting us to have this kinda of unforgetable moments...
During the third day at korea, it is raining all the day...
we thought that was so unlucky..
But who knows, it is snowing...
A white white things drop from the sky...
we are so happy...
we thought it is going to stop soon...
BUT
when i wake up the next morning....
watch out from the window...
the road is full of snow...
white scenery appears...
it is damn nice...
we are so lucky...
we played snow war...
Know wad is that?? we threw snow ball.... wahaha..
really very very nice...
an unforgetable moment in my life times...

Winter Sonata..
A very popular movie at korea...
we visited Nami island where this movie shoot at there...
is damn romantic but during our trip there it is raining...
raining cats and dogs...
huh... is kinda cold then...

Sakura...
when say about sakura, every people will think that it is the national flower of Japan...
BUT
during my trip to Korea, i am able to saw sakura...
everywhere and anytime...
why there is sakura at korea??
question is there...
Because during war between Japan and Korea, Japan brounght back the seed of sakura from korea and plant at their country...
At last, Japan used sakura as their national flower...
It was so nice...(pinkish white)

Frankly, i enjoy my trip.. But one week is too short for me...
I wish i am still at there now.. haha...
i had used to the weather at there... cold with sunshine
Malaysia is so hot.... I am still cant used to the weather now... having flu now...
Haiz...
a while hot, a while cold... Huhu...
11pm, at korea it should be 12am... on the bed now...
but now i am still siting at here...
typing my blog.... recalling back my memories...
a good memories...
memories that will be in my heart forever and ever...
should stop now and go to have my 'dinner'...
haha... should be supper dy...
nitez....