'YOU' mess up my life

It already more than two months I didnt update my blog
How are everyone out there??
It seem like I already disconnected from the world outside
So long didn't update myself
Haiz
It's because of 'you'
'You' really ruin my life
I hate 'you'
Howcome I can't get rid off you??
What 'you' actually are??
How come it is so hard for me to take you out of my life
Really feel so upset of this
What I had actually done this two months??
Nothing nothing and nothing
I am trying so hard to make you out of my life
But I really can't
Who can really help me??
God... Can you send a people to help me??
If no.. I think i will get mad soon
Haiz...
Please please..
Help me to get rid of 'YOU'
I hate 'YOU'

Jeff Chang I SAW Concert

过 火 by Jeff Chang 张信哲

是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯 让你去放纵
以为你 有天会感动
关於流言 我装作无动於衷

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱 难分是非
就别逃避 勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回

怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞 伤痛我背

是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯 让你去放纵
以为你 有天会感动
关於流言 我装作无动於衷

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱 难分是非
就别逃避 勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回

怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞 伤痛我背

怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞 伤痛我背

A super nice song with a meaningful lyrics
Jeff Chang, a 100% love song singer
Nice voice

It is all about yesterday
23rd of September
My grandma birthday and also one of my friend big day too
So my grandma and me went to Jeff Chang concert
We had a nice seat
Can see clearly
Enjoying his voice
Really awesome

Rewinding back....

Miss it... miss it

Miss my secondary life

My seconday friends

Hope you all are doing great out there

I am so glad to have you all as my friends

Thanks GOD for giving you all to me

Hehe

Really miss you all so much

Just had a long chat with my dear

Yvonne Glory

She will be going to study very very soon

Haiz

So sad la

Sure cant meet her for a long time dy

She will be going to Ipoh to study

And how about me??

Still can't find the way for myself

Ermm... Amber is coming back next week

Hope so I can meet her

I wanna go holiday with them

But really so hard to fix everybody time

Haha

A big family is difficult to gather

Lolzzz

MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH

Tired

I am so tired of doing all this things

Tired of repeating it again and again

Haizzzz

God, please help me to overcome it

Ability

Everyone has their own ability

What is yours??

and

What is mine??

I am still finding answer for this question

According to you:

I should walk out from the past and explore a new life that is suitable for me

What is a life that is suitable for me??

How and when I will find out a new life that is enable me to stay in

Oh GOD, I am tired of thinking

Oh GOD, I am tired of trying

Oh GOD, I am tired of waiting of course

Haizzz

What can I do now??

I had lost my way from long long ago

When can I back to normal again??

Back to a normal me.....

I am waiting a reply from you

GOD

Praying for my family and of course for myself too

Pray hardly everyday, every minutes and every seconds

Please help me to overcome all my difficulties

Pray for a better tomorrow

A smiley for everyone out there

^.^

Useless

Useless in chinese means 没有用

How often did you guys used to hear this word??

For me, this word is so common

U.S.E.L.E.S.S

A word to describe me

Haiz...

Sick

(Cough, headache, sorethroat, and flu)

Hate to be myself

I am sorry...

I am so so sorry..

My dear bloggie, my dear cousin and my dear friends

Once again I failed

It is a common things I do right??

I hate myself so much

What the hell I am doing??

I am so sorry my dear cousin

Really sorry..

Left you alone at there

Oh God..

I am so bad right..

I can't think of any reason to forgive myself

So sorry to my parents too

I know you all will be very sad

But that's me

I can't be a daughter that you all wish to have

Sincerely wish that next time you all will have a better daughter

So sorry...

That's all I can say

I really hate myself...

If I die, you all not need to feel sad of this

Cause I am the one that couldn't be treated anymore

So so sorry...

I am not healthy enough mentally

What the hell reason I am given to myself????

Haizzzzzzz.....

S.O.R.R.Y

for hurting everyone out there

Life without family

I had started my new life

A life without family

I had been third week my class started

Now, we studying Malaysian Studies

A damn boring class

Huh

But but but

This coming Wednesday I will be going back my home sweet home again

Hooray

Actually, I am studying A-Level at Taylor's Subang College

Haiz

Back to back, there again

Hopefully this time I can graduate from this course

Can't waste my parents money

Yes... I can do it

It is a kind of boring life at here

Without parents and my lovely little puppy

Ermm... But I must learn to adapt to this

Gambateh and good luck to me...

What to do now??

Is so boring...

Going Sunway??

Haha

Maybe...

My Astro Awards 2011~ An unforgettable night of 26th March

It's unbelievable... unbelievable...

Actually we got no tickets to enter for this show

But it's really unbelievable ...

With the help from my daddy friends we got tickets

Yeah~ (need to thanks them)

And the seat is not bad o

Is the second row

The row after all those VIPs

Hehe

Oh God.. You treat us so good...

Love you so much

And and and

Something really make me feel like I am dreaming

Fahrenheit staying at the same floor with me

I shake hand with wuzun

wth.. he is so handsome

I saw my idol too

Staying at the same hotel with us

16th floor of Maxim Genting

We ran towards that floor

He feel so curious how come we can access to that floor

Haha

Is because my cousin staying at that floor

It's really unbelievable right??

I staying at 10th floor, then Fahrenheit staying same floor with me

My cousins staying at 16th floor, then Leehom staying same floor with them

Oh God

You make me feel like I am lieing to others

But all these is truth

Leehom is so handsome

I saw him from a quite near angle

I nearly fainted dy

But I am so sad that I din get to shake hands with him

Haizzzz

He is so friendly

He talked to us

Say goodnight to us

Wth

Our lucks is so good o

Everybody out there please don't jealous

Haha

Until now i still feel like i am dreaming

Some of his fans is so bad

Push him and he nearly fell down

Oh gosh... Pity him

Please don't do that to our idol

Please.. Later he will feel scare to Malaysia fans o

Leehom is the winner of the night with 6 awards

HE IS THE HERO

Let's congratulates him on his winnings

LEEHOM ROCKS

Will love and support you forever

Other than that, we saw many other artists too

Just like Della, Jolin, AK, Alien, and many more

We really had a great Saturday night

Yeah~

But great things wont last long

So we should keep it tightly in our heart

Good luck and gambateh to Leehom and me

You are a great singer and producer

You are the hero

Yeah~

LOVE YOU FOREVER

Pray for a better tomorrow

31st of March (Actually is 28th but Taylor's postponed it)

How would that day be??

What feeling should I have now??

Excited or Nervous??

I think both of it

I think this is my third time to go for college

It is so shameful to say this

Haiz

Third time should be no problem for me right??

Yeah~~

Pray Pray and Pray

Pray for a better day

I am 19 now

20 will come in almost 2 more months

Haiz

Should start my life without my parents

Don't ever look back

Just think of future

Don't scared

Just enjoy my college life

Don't miss home

Just enjoy enjoy and enjoy

Don't cry

Just smile

This time is a bit special

Because I will study together with my cousin

Yeah~~

(Hope so we will in the same class)

Luckily got her

Hehe

I am so useless right??

Please be brave!! Tey Shu Teck

You can do it!!!

Back to back, I going back Taylor's to study

Oh God

Please pray for me this time

I like Taylor's Lakeside Campus

(although until today I haven see it through my real eyes)

Haha

I renting a Condo with my cousin and her friends

Yeah~~

Anyone interested in staying with us??

Two more empty rooms to rent

Hehe

Hope so we will stay as one family peacefully

Good luck to me and my cousin too

(She saying that she will cry as she need to be apart from her family)

We must be brave

Let's gambateh together

"HOMESICK"

Please go far far away from me

You will always be my enemy

Haizzzz

Singapore Trip

Went Singapore last Tuesday

Guess who I go with??

With my cousin and her friends

Our main purpose of this trip is to have a look on some college

But but but

Everyone of us seem to be so excited going there to shop and not to look for college

We went two college

Which is Kaplan and Raffles College

Among this two, I think Raffles is better

but I am not thinking of going Singapore to study

Don't know why will have such a feeling

Maybe I don't like the people there

Prefer Taylor's Lakeside Campus

Hope so this time will be a good beginning for me

28th of March class will begin

But we haven't go and register

Haven't find any hostel

Haizzz

Is too late for us dy

How leh??

Back to back, now already March

How fast time past

Should prepare myself for my future

Back to my Singapore trip

Guess where we stay??

At hotel??

No...

We staying at a place called G4 Station

Which is located around Bugis there

Actually, this is a place for all those backpackers to stay

because it is cheap and convenient

SGD30 per person in a 6 people room

Is it cheap??

Haha

Is a good experience for everyone of us

We took MRT, Taxi and Bus

We went Jurong, Bugis, Orchard, Ang Mo Kio and Cityhall

Clever leh

Feel so proud of myself

But but but

I am not able to meet up with Amber

Haiz Haiz

So sad

That's all for today

Nitezzz

I am Number 4

I am Number 4
How about you??
Haha
Curious for this???
Actually it was a name for a movie
Is a nice movie
Strongly recommend everyone to watch it
Yeah~~
Is super nice
Not boring at all
Every part of this movie is a climax
make me feel so nervous
No even a part will let me fall asleep

Now already 3am in the morning
But I still on9ing at my hotel room
Didn't feel sleepy at all
Why??
I am so worry now
Worry for so many things
and
Scare as well
Why will have such kinda of feeling??
Is so difficult to explain
I pray so hard
Hoping that everything go smoothly
Hoping that I will success
Hoping that my xxx problems can be solve

Another sad thing to share
I had missed out my idol Raymond's Lam Concert
Haiz
So sad
Last Monday, which is on Valentine I went Singapore and meet my dear friend Amber
So happy that I had successfully met her up
But I am so sorry towards her
Because I made her wait me for so long
And we just able to eat dinner together and chat for a while
And not even a photo we take together
Haiz
I am so sorry, Amber

Honestly speaking, my friends are so few
Why??
Is it because of my attitude??
Nowadays, all my friends including ... are less contacting with me
Why why why??
I am so sad for that
What had I done??
You all have your college mates but I don't have
I am so lonely
I am like a people that had been disconnected with this world
I am just a people living in my own world
Please don't do this to me
But luckily I have my parents, cousins and as well as my beloved puppy accompany me

GOD... I need you now
Please do help me
Give me some luck
I am indeed of it right nowwww

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year my dear blogger

Today already the fourth day of this occasion

How fast time pass

Sigh~~

Need to wait for another one year lu

But hor, this year seem like no CNY mood o

Why leh??

Cause Segamat flood

So sienz la

Pity them o

Need to clean during CNY Eve

Both of my aunt house get flooded

Haizzz

Howcome will like this leh??

What happen to our mother earth??

Why so many natural disaster de??

Today already the fourth day I didn't went back my house

Miss my puppy so much

Hehe

Don't know why suddenly I had the faith want to go study dy

Maybe I am too boring for my life now

Need a great changes

Hope so I can do it

I should have determination and not easily give up

I should say I am possible in doing this

GOD please bless me

Random thought from this few weeks

It had been so long I didn't manage to update my blog

Everyday go here and there

Segamat, Malacca and Segamat

Chinese New Year is just around the corner

Is everything ok???

Today, our new dining table just reach

Nice table though

Hehe

This coming Saturday, my house will have a party

to celebrate my brother birthday

Anyone Interesting??

Lolzzz

Oya, almost forget to tell everyone that

I had change my hairstyle

haha

I make my hair curly o

It is consider as nice but I am not good in doing and blowing it

Haiz

Just the first three days is to be consider as perfect

Because my hair is style and blow by 'him'

The 'him' which is to point towards Michael Poh

Anyone know him??

A great hair designer

But the price is 'pretty' as well

Haha

It is just like sucking my blood

Lolzzz

Tomorrow, I will be going Malacca with my friends

Hope so everything will be fine

I am so scared that I cant make it again

Haiz

Pray hardly

And and and

Lastly, which did you all think is better??

Singapore or Kuala Lumpur??

Which place to go and study leh??

Taylor Lakeside Campus??

or

Singapore???

Haizzz

So hard to make my decision...

Tired to make any decision

That's all for today..

Welcome, 2011

Welcome, 2011
2010 finally ends and here comes 2011
May everyone have a sparkle year of 2011
Wish my families and friend good luck in this brand new year
May God bless you all with good health and wealth

Chinese New Year is coming soon
Feel excited
Cause it is fun
can meet all my friends
Haha
But but but
I haven start my keep fit plan
Haizzz
So fat la me
This Tuesday, I went Singapore with my cousin
We went shopping to buy new cloth
But we cant get la
Went Takashimaya and Bugis Junction
Bugis Street as well
It is so crowded there
So hot as well
1 hour and 15 minutes more
will be my friend, Amber birthday
Happy Birthday to her
Have a blast in this year of 20 years old
That's all for today
Nitez and bye Bloggie