Sad, Disappointed, Touch & Blur

It's heavily rain outside.... I feel so sad and disappointed... Actually is wad kind of feeling also got... Last two days, i had a nice chat with my high school friends.. They help me to recalled back our secondary memories... Thanks to them... Hope so i can turn back to that time... but the truth is time will never turn back... so we had to look forward... Another matter is, i am so blur in choosing wad handphone to buy... Satio- as wad my cousin say is outdated dy... Haha... so now i m considering vivaz or X10... But X10 is too expensive... 2500++... so maybe i will buy vivaz... Quite nice... Disappointed- this cumin saturday is my best fried birthday... she juz told me that she wont be back on that day... but i can guess so in the early part... Her parents is not at home... so sad... actually we wanna gather and celebrate with her... as last year she is unable to cum back n celebrate with us... ermm... her hard work in planning others friends birthday and mine should be return... but she had no time... what to do?? But i wish she can come back celebrate with us.... A forward birthday wishes for her... Happy Birthday, Mei Yee..... hope our friendship will last forever... and if you got any problems you can find me.. but every time i ask you, you will say nothing... I am quite disappointed with that answer... so i not dare to ask you again...

Where is my handphone??????

So sad to say that, i had lost my hp two days ago... haiz... Juz used for 5 weeks... 5 weeks... so it was a brand new phone.... everything inside gone... contact, photo since three years ago... huh... so sad.... Who stole it?? so bad... i lost it when i was playing bowling.... i asked my cousin to help me take care... but suddenly she ask me got take back my phone ma?? then we realize it had been stolen... maybe is the people that sit beside us took it... i had been scolded by my mum... i tink now i need to buy myself.... haiz... wad to do?? wad hp to buy?? not because of the phone but EVERYTHING inside.... My lovely phone.... where u gone??? who stole it?? haiz....

Korea?? or Taiwan??

This is the time for me and my family go for trip... Once a year... But the problem is taiwan or korea?? Haiz... so difficult to make decision.. But i prefer to go korea.. haha.. Got so many branded stuff to buy... But finally my mum had made decision to go korea... But it's quite expensive o... RM3000++... Wow... 5 people plus my grandma.. Tat's too many... But go China oso almost the same price... I dun like to go China... Everything almost the same... But luckily we had choose to go korea... 25 April.... Waiting for this moment... Haha... So happy... But... Something let me feel unhappy again... no message from you... No news from you... I know you busy this week... But I know we cant like last time le... That's the end.... Everything should have a dot for it....

That's too boring......

Everyday repeating the same things.... It's really very boring... Y everybody seem to be so busy... They got exam, works, and assignments to do... Y i didn't have?? The reason is i make myself to have tis kind of feeling... At home think wanna go n study... But I not dare to think of it again... I will make myself to dissapointed again So wad can I do??? Everyday repeating the same routine... Going to crazy soon....

That's true....

In our life, there is up and down as wad you say.... Our journey of life is so tough... Everybody need to pass through... But why i not dare to move through it??? i juz stop at this moment.... doing nth.... What should i do??? Ask for opinion?? But thats not work... As wad u say everyone of us need to move through it.... If not that is not call life..... LIFE... is so miserable... As i wish i can be brave as you.... although u say u not tat strong... But i juz need a little bit from you.... That is more than enough.......

What should I do?????

Yesterday, suddenly feel that so lonely.... feel wanna message you but i know you still angry me... every message between us is so short... we lost our conversations.... What should i do??? Finally i found somebody to talk to... Tats my lovely friend too.... Thanks guys to let me sleep.... [5.30am]Finally i discovered the place you wrote all your words from your deep heart.... Ermm.... I am so sorry..... From there i know you wont believe me anymore, our friendship.... Sad..... But tats the effect from making lies on you..... Make you feel sad and disappointed for not only one times....I should get this....

SORRY my friend.......

Once again i make you feel disappointed... Make you drop your tears... I shouldn't do that.... But i had done it without thinking twice... Friendship is so important... i had make another mistake... Since graduate from my secondary and after taking my result, i had change a lot... none of the things i can do it successfully... Even a small matter like choosing course, college n many more i cant even manage to handle it... So it is true that i am a useless person... Friend, i had mess up your life... from the deep of my heart, it is true tat i wanna go there n study.... Stay with you, enjoy our meal together... Even my family members also say tat i wont go to study without you... Is it true??? But on tat day, the last day of january everything change... my mind suddenly blank.... Wad should i do??? All because the word STRESS and BRAVE... Because of these two words i had made my two friends sad.... So sorry my friends.... I had lost my friendship... i know you wont believe me anymore..... I know until now you still angry... even you say no but there is a distance between us dy... So wad should i do??? Miss the time we together in secondary..... But time will past... I should turn to more mature, brave.... After 6 months without any blog, today i choose to wrote something especially to my best friend ever, Mei Yee.... I am so sorry... Sincerely apalogize from me... I know a word sorry wont cure our friendship..... But i really want to say it.... I am so SORRY.... SORRY my friend..... You will always be my best friend...... Although u don't think so.....